Ariana Grande may have canceled a recent meet and greet during a tour stop in Antwerp, Germany, but she made sure her fans knew why. According to the Daily Mail, fans who bought passes received an email shortly before the show on Friday with the subject line: “A personal message from Ariana.”
“Hi my loves, time for some honesty. My anxiety and depression have been at an all time high lately. I have been giving you all I’ve got and trying to push through as hard as I can and mask it,” she wrote. “Today has been an extra rough one. After a handful of panic attacks I feel like the wisest decision would be not to do soundcheck party or m&g today and preserve me energy for the show. I don’t want to rush through our time together or seem shaky. I like spending actual time with you and I won’t be able to be present or give you the best of me today. I wish I could control these attacks but as anyone with anxiety or depression understands, sometimes you can only operate on its terms and not your own. Anybody that had m&g or soundcheck today will of course be fully reimbursed for this decision. I love you. I’m so sorry. I promise I will absolutely give you the best show I can.”
Grande has been candid about her struggles with mental health in the past. In 2018 she opened up to Elle about the PTSD she experienced after the bombing during her Manchester concert in May 2017.
“When I got home from tour, I had really wild dizzy spells, this feeling like I couldn’t breathe,” she said. “I would be in a good mood, fine and happy, and they would hit me out of nowhere. I’ve always had anxiety, but it had never been physical before. There were a couple of months straight where I felt so upside down.”
Grande is currently on her “Sweetener” until the end of the year, and clearly intends to keep fans up-to-date on how she’s feeling. On Friday night she tweeted: “i’ll give u all i have n nothing less i promise.”